doppelgangland

light on when i'm gone

2009-02-11T19:39:00.003+08:00

Finally, after a couple of months of deliberating and wondering if i should have it.. I've got it!! Thanks to my generous godmum, mum and my birthday timing.I got the iFl.exi Val.ue plan which is more than enough for my monthly SMS and call usage.The initial 300MB data bundle was a bit iffy. But with a stroke of luck and powerful persistence from my godma, I managed to get 1GB. For free.When my

i've been around the world

2009-01-08T02:05:00.003+08:00

For my birthday, I'm considering getting a new HP.It's about time I upgraded my phone plan; even though I've always maintained low handphone use I still think it'll be more prudent to get a plan where I have an option to increase usage, be it talk time or sms. And this prudence should be especially exercised given recent circumstances.With all plan upgrades, come a new phone. So my current

con te partiro

2009-01-04T16:37:00.003+08:00

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?- Went to Taiwan, got to know Taiwanese people- Went to Siam Reap and saw Angkor Wat- Got contact lenses, got braces- Gambled at a casino.Among other things. -smirk2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?I don’t make NYRs, but I probably should resolve to be a nicer person.To know how to work and to

no es amor

2008-12-28T21:15:00.004+08:00

And so today marks the end of my 1 week of holidays.This week had just ridiculously seeped away into the tiny crevices of time. Before I knew it, Christmas came and went; a most drama-less and yet enjoyable affair.This year, it was tranquil. For one thing, I only started my holidays 5 days before Christmas, and maybe that was a contributing factor to a lack of festive feeling. Also, the gang only

i'm yours

2008-12-26T17:27:00.007+08:00

=)Here's to the best Christmas in years.

2008-12-26T14:56:00.003+08:00

The last post was exactly 5 months ago.So much has transpired over this period of time, and yet at the same time nothing seems to have happened.Daily life has seen its share of both excitement and mundanities. I've trudged through days just wishing for useless lessons or activities to end, and also days where I've stepped out of wherever I came from feeling exhuasted yet exhilarated, and

feeling my world start to turn

2008-07-26T13:30:00.003+08:00

I still don't get the big hoohah over this country, but a holiday was a holiday after all.Part of me wishes to return to that land of simplicity and stres-free-ness.

was as fresh as the bright blue sky

2008-07-14T22:52:00.003+08:00

I removed the links to my archives.. because they are a complete embarrassment.I mean, seriously, the level of my immaturity was APPALLING. gawddamn amazingly.. disgusting. I can't believe I actually left them there for the past 3 months or so. But anyway, Nic's 21st. I don't normally drink that much, so the 10 mugs of beer and assorted mixtures? Way bad for my GIT. And I'm not sure I can

2008-07-08T22:36:00.002+08:00

I don't wanna be a whiny obsessive hardcore fan.. but urgh, I am.Everytime i see "rheumatic fever" and scribble down "RF" (similar to someone's initials?) I'll get reminded of the all-too-painful loss and feel traumatised.Now all I have to do is make a list of Things That Will Remind Me of Wimbledon 2008 and then avoid them. eeesh.

2008-07-07T19:13:00.001+08:00

The greatest, most thrilling match I've ever watched.Yet.. still very painful.

we live in fascination

2008-06-02T02:56:00.002+08:00

And it's off to Cambodia again later. Project Lokun, part 2.The feeling of leaving still hasn't sunk in. Still caught in the limbo between blissful unawareness and the reality of the imminent project. I'm not as eager as I was the previous time, albeit less apprehensive.Ever since I became a full-fledged tennis fan I have NOT been able to sit through and follow an entire French Open.2006 - OCS.

got a fist of pure emotion

2008-05-28T00:57:00.003+08:00

The parallels of Charmed.Season 5.Phoebe became Queen of the Underworld, abandoning her witchcraft. Piper was devastated by a loss. And Paige misses both of them.

when that smile of yours creeps into my mind

2008-05-26T22:17:00.002+08:00

And the French Open has arrived. Roland Garros, home of the red clay, generally my least favourite slam (because it's the weakest surface of my two favourite players) but the only tournament I've actually been to.I don't feel that same excitement that I normally do when a Grand Slam is imminent. At the end of every calendar year, I look forward to the Australian. In the middle of the year I look

all the colours are fading

2008-05-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

Another bizzare dream last night.This time I was a ridiculously helpless boy in a place that seemed a curiously smooth blend of Mexico (or one of the Spanish speaking South American countries) and Singapore. Guess our architecture isn’t THAT all that disparate after all.But anyway, after being chased by gangsters all around a place that seemed like the YCK area, we (me, two Spanish guys who were

i'm loving angels instead

2008-05-24T16:14:00.003+08:00

We were sitting at a table at Wee Nam Kee (opposite Novena Square) when I spotted Felicia Chin entering the Cheers beside us. I approached her for a picture, and she cheerily complied. (At first her friend tried to say "sorry not today" but I directly asked FC who said "sure, ok.")(Ignore bilateral Horner's syndrome and crumpled shirt. It was a long long day in the wards.)As she left and walked

can't you feel my heart beat so

2008-05-24T16:13:00.000+08:00

Such a pity that our two favourite treasures were only discovered in the twilight of our posting.Oh well. If fate decrees, then.

Quotes of the Day, Part 2

2008-05-20T23:31:00.001+08:00

Again, thanks to David for coming up with these gems.(Me, Ross and Tammy were bitching about Liang and his inamorata.)Me: The thing is, she’s tickling his balls so bad and he’s doing everything humanly possible for her and she’s not even showing anything in return.David: Wah, so bad ah!1 minute laterDavid: (turns to me very earnestly) When you say ball-tickling you mean literally ah?Me: (stunned)

Quotes of the Day

2008-05-07T00:11:00.002+08:00

From South Park:Stan: Mr Garrison, how come our mums arrested Terence and Phillip?Garrison: Your mums are just upset. They’re probably all on their periods or something.Someone: Mr Garrison, Wendy and I think that was a sexist statement.Mr Garrison: Well I’m sorry Wendy, but I just don’t trust anything that bleeds for 5 days and doesn’t die.I generally don’t laugh at SP humour, but this one was

No one told me, I was going to find you

2008-05-05T22:28:00.002+08:00

Ok, a new template, a new (hopefully) breath of life into what was turning out to be a grossly underused place.I got an epiphany after messing unsuccessfully with the template the entire weekend - and customised the template within an hour. XML, thy name is crap.But anyway, one thing that I couldn't get to work was the time, because the timestamp format required was DATE which meant that the

I know you're out of place

2008-05-05T22:26:00.001+08:00

Two bizarre dreams, two disjointed stories, in a single night. I can even barely remember the details of each, and what I can remember of each just seems weird and random, yet I feel like each dream was significant, and there’s a single message, moral, or theme that links the two. I have no idea why I had those dreams anyway – they revolved around two completely random people – HL (a neighbour of

2008-04-12T18:46:00.003+08:00

I’ve decided a titleless post. A first? Most of this entry was created last week, but no idea why I didn't publish.I’ve looked for love, in stranger placesI didn’t realise that I wasn’t the only one to be so pensieve in such settings, but epiphanies come in the weirdest places. Maybe it’s that distinct smell – for me memories and emotions are solidly tied to smells, a familiar whiff easily

2008-02-22T23:44:00.007+08:00

you'll be safe hereI thought since I'm on the topic of my favourite game I'll just reminiscise on the only few live matches I've had the fortune of catching other than the mostly disappointing exo between Maria and Anna C. I'm quite happy that among the singles matches I've watched in real life, I've watched the No.2 and No.3 men's players, and Sharapova and Kuznetsova were then ranked No.2 and

2008-02-22T02:11:00.001+08:00

throw it away forget yesterdayMy first post of 2008.I haven’t been sleeping well lately.Every night, I dream. About everything I thought of during the day, everything that happened during the day, and basically, for what feels like the entire duration of my slumber. So I awake feeling like I’ve slept for only half the time that I’ve actually been in bed, and I awake feeling like crap.The total,

2007-12-25T20:37:00.000+08:00

this is my grown up christmas listSo on this dreary gray Christmas Eve, I’m sitting at home in front of the computer; wanting to soak up some festive cheer instead of merely creating my own from my Christmas iTunes playlist.This year hasn’t been the same as the last – no blast of that Christmas je ne sais quoi, no semi-obsessing over certain movies, no time to bask (or separated by a thin line,

2007-12-11T01:49:00.000+08:00

you are the music in meSat night was ZoukOut, and like every clubbing trip, it ended up me crashing in bed til the next day's evening. It was better than I expected in some ways, and much lousier in others.Atmosphere was great for one, and the crowd was... I've never seen so many people turn up at a clubbing event before. Hot bods galore, although mediocrity was also abound.The night started out

2007-12-01T14:27:00.000+08:00

一起长大的约定突然间丝丝的念头变成了主意，想焕然一新，所以决定这整篇文章会只有中文的笔墨。况且，华文都扎城西巴烂了，不釜底抽薪，成和体统？对，毕竟是中人，虽然会稍微崇洋媚外，但会永远尽力发挥中文的辉煌。说到来，想运用华文毕竟不难，但想顺利写作可不那么容易。一次过写那么多字可是三年前的事了。我真是个怪人。记得曾经对朋友说过，虽有些人机智过人，但对有些事可愚蠢得很。一些峨嵋赞赏的话就立刻变了个傻姑；一次视而不见便毫无理由地把心情从天降壤。这是第一次我分明的‘看下’吗？由此以来‘看上’的我可是180度的转变。怪屁的人可能会终有怪屁的看像吧。这太难了！我的华文表达能力可差进得很，要换回英文。搁笔了。

2007-11-30T01:25:00.001+08:00

now that it’s all said and donePhysical exhaustion, and part of me is dying for some sleep. But I know I won’t be able to, at least not peacefully. That, and wet hair.A cornucopia of thoughts and impressions. Part of meIs proud that all my years of reading Nancy Drew, Hardy Boys and Agatha Christie have not gone to waste. It wasn’t easy, and it took effort to find out so much from so little.Is

2007-11-21T02:21:00.001+08:00

the stars are brightly shiningThis is a disclaimer I feel I need to add. Most of those who read my blog know me well in person, and some are participants in my daily life – enough to know what’s going on. Most the time.I bet when I start going on a cryptic discourse, most people would immediately guess that I’m talking about That Person Whom I Have A Very Complicated Relationship With. Yes, that

2007-11-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

and the way you look tonightI hope I’m not having mood swings, because I’m in an extraordinarily good mood now, somehow.Ok fine, I know the reason why, but I’m not going to say. It’s one of those silly things of mine where I morph (ANAPLASIA, totally.) into this stupid, giggling mess. Embarrassing, but no one else reads my blog anyway. It’s amazing how easily one gets put into a good mood. Ok

2007-11-19T23:38:00.000+08:00

and that’s why your smileAnd so the tennis seasons ends. No, I don’t care about the Davis Cup, although I hope roddick takes it. So our two world number ones defend their respective masters crowns. Maybe Federer did indeed read my blog and decide that a little power display was in order, because after that bizarre loss to Gonzalez he totally tore apart the rest of his opponents, including Nadal 6

2007-11-13T01:25:00.001+08:00

even heroes have the right to bleedAs I speak, Federer has suffered his first back-to-back defeat in 4.5 years. He’s THIS freaking close to losing his No.1 spot, and he pulls this stunt. He’s clearly losing it, and whatever he’s losing, he needs to get it back.Then, the not-so-lovely-last-night Sharapova can only sustain her monster groundstrokes for 1.5 sets, before she evidently tires out too

2007-11-03T01:06:00.000+08:00

porque tu dolor es mi dolorI have no idea what those lyrics mean. I just know, that I heart my spanish songs. I just read through my entry, and what a drama whore I am. I really didn’t intend to be so dramatic; but a certain thespian from my class had probably subconsciously influenced me so. Whatever the case, it’s MY blog, and I’m not going to censor expression for my feelings back then.

2007-11-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

so please, baby pleaseThe feeling of losing yourself is awful. I’ve always made it somewhat of a point to bottle up and ignore all negative feelings before a tournament, competition, or exam. Whatever that requires my focus for a period of time. Stop blogging, stop bitching, stop thinking, stop feeling, just focus on the task. I don’t know what catalysed this sudden realisation. But I’ve got to

2007-10-29T00:41:00.001+08:00

go the extra mile for youQuality.Where do you find it?Is it over there?On the surface, probably seems so. Somewhat.Until words start traipsing out.Everyone searches for it.Are we looking in the right places?Certainly not there, I think.How anyone gets anything deep out of a shallow pool amazes me.But we all return anyway, because we don’t know where else to look.Or because we just never learn.

2007-10-17T22:16:00.000+08:00

i'll do whatever it takesI realised my writing is majorly screwed up. I think I may have lost the ability to connect two sentences with any decency in sentence structure. But whateverCatching the Madrid Masters last night made me remember how enamoured I am with Europe, and Spain in particular, and of course, my favourite city in all of Europe (and possibly the world, minus Singapore),

2007-10-17T04:05:00.001+08:00

i see what’s going downIt’s 345 am, and I have a microB prac at 930 later. I think I can safely assume that I will not be attending said practical, because it is impossible that I can drag myself out of bed.It’s probably going to be a waste of time anyway. I hope.I probably shouldn’t have caught the Federer-Ginepri match. But I turned on the TV at 2 am and I couldn’t switch it off.Federer has

2007-10-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

and give me a breakIt's been.. a grand total of 3 months since my last post. Very possibly my longest hiatus from blogging ever, but we've all got to take a break sometimes.Not like blogging actually requires taking any breaks.(Microbiology, though, is a total bitch.)Not like I didn't already take one, in dusty old Bangkok.Where my eyes opened, impressions changed, opinions flipped, people fell

2007-07-10T02:51:00.000+08:00

i could be blue i could be brownAge old question answered, how to tell if someone's gay.

2007-07-09T03:31:00.000+08:00

i could be violet skyAll hail the King.

2007-07-03T02:24:00.001+08:00

i never stray too far from the baselineOk, so those aren't the lyrics to kellyclarkson. But it's probably more applicable. I prefer slugging it out from the baseline, although I do take the occasional joy in going forward.So, ok. In my moment of boredom, I will introduce, for the clueless out there, the babes of the tennis WTA tour.Of course, what's a list of tennis babes without the very lovely,

2007-07-01T14:10:00.001+08:00

i cannot forget the way i feel right nowMomentarily I forgot what I was going to write about. Then I remembered.Perfection. Purrrrrrrrrrrfectione.And it’s all omgomg all over again. Ok, so it was thrashy. But it was way better than the first one, and it felt so much more… cheerful and colourful this time round.The Total Omg-ness definitely made the show.I wonder why there aren’t any commercials,

2007-06-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

put your heart in my handsSo much to say, so few words that come out.Post trip blues have waned somewhat; although reminiscent thoughts still do bring about longing pangs.I should get started on my trip recollecting, but somehow… the words aren’t coming. Maybe I’ll wait til I have the complete picture collection, then I’ll really get down to reorganization.Really, what a trip.

2007-05-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

i guess that this where we've come toOk. It’s been a month, and a month of slacking, nuaing, and fun it has been.I think a post before I depart for Europe is due.Ok, darn. I should’ve been posting regularly. I feel like I’ve just lost a month.I remember… dota, late nights, lots of drinking, a few timbres, many outings, a few movies, crunchyrolling, lots of photowhoring, facebooking, late night

2007-04-25T23:57:00.000+08:00

cos i’ve been acting like sour milk fell on the floorI very much prefer Blind on record compared to the acoustic one. Normally acoustic songs are better because the singer’s voice becomes even more important.Check out Michelle Branch’s acoustic version of Everywhere.It’s been, well, some time, and between now and The Day That I Had Been Waiting So Eagerly For, I have accomplished:ONE kickass

2007-04-12T01:06:00.000+08:00

i may switch off and go in a daydreamIn need of cheery, poppish/rocky songs to cheer me up.The tension is mounting. And I am starting to feel the pressure.I really can't wait for next week.Playing Blind on loop does have a slightly relaxing effect.It's too late for regret. Now for the onward dash.

2007-04-10T03:08:00.002+08:00

standing on the bridgeWhat does I’m With You, Beautiful Stranger, and Cry have in common?won’t you take me by the hand take me somewhere newI think it fulfils, sorry, addresses a part of some people, that probably in their perfectly planned, secure and absolutely peaceful life, would never experience.you were all by yourself,staring up at a dark grey skyI don’t know why I like to blog at this

2007-04-08T23:24:00.003+08:00

hold on if you feel like letting goInundation of tennis these few days, for 2 hours at a time, and each time I emerge from the court looking like it just rained. However, it is nice playing with hard hitters, and knowing that you can slug it out with them. At least until your grip starts failing on you, and you start misjudging the height of the bounce, and they relentlessly attack your backhand

2007-04-08T04:34:00.000+08:00

if you wanna ride with meAnother 4 days since my last post, another 4 days spent dreaming about my would-be-lovely time somewhere around next Wednesday.I can’t help the slacking though. I just absolutely can’t concentrate at times (uh huh, I wonder why.); and time just seems like it would be better spent doing other things instead of trying to re-cram relations of cavernous sinus into your

2007-04-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

now wouldn’t that be sweetWould muchly like to go catch phantom, that being my favouritest musical of all time. Ok, granted, I haven’t watched many musicals and only like, 3 or 4 live (if I’m not wrong, PCK the musical was like the last one I caught. Does that count, or only Broadway?)I have however, replayed the soundtrack approximately 5 billion times and watched the movie, erm, twice. It’s

2007-03-30T23:51:00.000+08:00

to hold me and to hide meOne of my all time favourite songs. When someone sings “Say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime”, it is just irrefutably romantic. Hence someone who likes, knows and can sing this song is a total ++. Person who can sing it well and sexily is super ++++. Person who has both looks and can sing the song to (or with! Since I AM pretty adept at tenor tones.) me is

2007-03-26T02:17:00.000+08:00

this ship is taking me far awayNotes from a sleep deprivee at 2.15am. Whether I eventually post this is a different matter; I just felt that perhaps random thoughts shouldn't be let go so easily, because most gems come from nowhere.Desired quality 5:00, something quite rare among the fishes in the sea. Desired quality A and B are more common, but to find Desired Qualities 5+A+B has an even more

2007-03-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

but it's not so badStupid Blogger doesn't let me view any new posts until like 5 days after I post it. But Whatever.Went to Timbre again, on Tue night, where the wonderfully talented Ngak was playing again. Weeknights are so much better for pub-crawling; it's much quieter and the emptiness is much more relaxing. Stress levels (and cortisol) just shoots up when you have to queue up for 1.5 hrs in

2007-03-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

and so sally can waitHeard this song at a very fabulous pub with a fabulous band last night, which was one of the many enjoyable things that happened yesterday. Timbre is a great place to hang out. Beer was (rather) cheap, pizza was good, pina colada sucked, ngak and his band were Grrrrreat.Then it was a ride in Yuhui's (very nice) monster Lexus back to Bernice's.I must say that I am a TERRIBLE

2007-01-31T22:08:00.000+08:00

to light the shadows on my face20.That's how old I am. And it's.. old.But somehow, I can't help feeling excited. What's to become, what's to happen?Already a man. But am I? We'll see. One year ago, I was lying back on my bed, miserable and venting it all out in my diary. It was a Tuesday, and earlier, I had spent my day in the very same restaurant that I just ate at. I had barely recovered from a

2007-01-29T21:48:00.000+08:00

look what surrounds you now"if you like reruns, then.. go for it." -XI don't know. Sometimes I do - I watched some movies over and over without feeling bored. Other times, it's so painful you can only bear to watch it once. However, lately the movies I've been watching seem to be unbearable. Watching another rerun remains to be seen."There have been suggestions in the past that Gonzalez lacks the

2007-01-20T22:31:00.000+08:00

everything you own in the box to the leftSo 2006 has left, and 2007 has so cleverly snuck its way in.Initially wanted to do an entry on a 2006 review, but the emotions mandatory for such an entry dissipated along with the new year. Hence, 2006 will be another year that will be recalled through snippets in 2007 posts.I just read through the diary I kept in BMT. There was 9 weeks in BMT, meaning an

2006-12-31T23:44:00.000+08:00

dream a little dream of meGoodbye, 2006. Welcome, 2007.

2006-12-24T01:41:00.000+08:00

last night took a walk in the snowthe idea of christmasThe festivities, the atmopshere, the lights, the crowd. The mood in town that comes with the throngs of friends, couples, families; the 20 min walk that is needed to traverse the 5 min route. The feeling>. There's something very je ne sais quoi about the emotions that christmas evoke. I mean, it's Christmas! Time for love, for presents, for

2006-12-16T22:28:00.000+08:00

one day you'll find your light againI am absolutely not accustomed to blogging and then having people questioning me about my blog. There is also that disconcerting, albeit only slight, feeling that people close to you are scrutinising your every word. My cousin posted up an entry expressing his somewhat trenchant intentions towards his immediate family, and that entry, when read by some

2006-11-22T21:44:00.000+08:00

never wannna say goodbyeOk, firstly, I shall welcome TWO NEW BITCHES, TAMMY AND BERNICE, to my blog! Tammy is a SLUT, and so is Bernice, but they are the most hilarious people you can find anyway and yes, I have loads of fun and laughter with them all the time.However, this necessitates a more careful and/or appropriate diction because of the enormity of their oral orifices, and also the habitual

2006-11-20T00:21:00.000+08:00

this could be the startIt just suddenly dawned that my favourite character in Grey's Anatomy is .. Denny Duquette. Followed by Izzie, Addision, then Christina. But whatever.And while we're on a listing whim:Prison Break: Michael, clearly. Then Sarah. Then Lincoln.Desperate Housewives: Gabrielle. Then Lynette. Lost (I haven't caught an ep in ages!): Jack.Friends: All.Charmed: All.I still feel

2006-11-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

from one to ninety-twoChristina's The Christmas Song always brings back memories for me. A rather recent christmas at that (2005), one I spent blissfully in Genting Highlands with my gang, post A levels and pre-NS, just enjoying. God, how I miss those times. (Now, my readers (all two of them) would probably disagree. B spent his while he was already in NS, so I really doubt PTP in Ninja would

2006-10-29T21:56:00.000+08:00

looking from the outsideHIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL ROCKS. It's a piece of juvenile, teenage, cliche-plotted attempt to pass off as a credible musical.. but it ROCKS anyway and I just LOVE it. And why not? The tunes are damned catchy, the dancing is cute, the themes are universally and identifiable-with, the cast is attractive. Even the characters are easy to identify with. I would be putting up youtube

2006-10-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

i wanna catch your waveIt's been one week so I figure several news headlines are in order.1. I have moved in! To Ross' (actually not-so) fantastic apartment in Normanton Park with him and yeeonn; where I have managed to twist both their arms into giving me the master bedroom because an ensuite bathroom is totally my kind of thing. 3 guys living in the same apartment = cleaning disaster,

2006-10-01T01:33:00.000+08:00

so take me, don't leave meCinderella found her Prince Charming, the Charmed Sisters found their Leos and Cupids and Henrys, even ugly Shrek got his Princess Fiona.Everybody wants a fairytale ending, and a happily ever after; is that why fairytales are so endearing? And of course, the quintessential question: will I get my fairytale happilyeverafter?Some FairyTale depictions are Just Erroneous.

2006-07-24T23:28:00.000+08:00

i need to make you seeI never expected myself to fall back to old habits so quickly. There have been several this year, but hardly any qualified as real cookies (to use X’s metaphor). They were more like giant crumbs that may have provided some modicum of taste, but never enough, never lasting, never momentous. It was probably the nature of the environment at that time that didn’t permit any

2006-07-22T14:02:00.000+08:00

shouldn't i lose my temperI was digging through some ancient relics, and I found this. I wrote this out of sheer boredom and a spark of idiotic madness. It's altered slightly to catch up to, erm, current affairs. Or rather, latest additions.And why did I write it? I was inundated by all things J at that time, probably. It has no purpose, no other significant meaning other than a J-tribute. It's

2006-07-13T02:00:00.000+08:00

fill the space betweenI'm totally getting Grey's Obsessed. I'm McObsessed. But I totally can't help it. Grey's is McBestShowOnTelevision. It is McIrresistible. And I McLove it.Perhaps the Mc- labelling is getting irritating. Ok, and "McLove" is probably a wrong label, since Mc- is attached to another noun or adjective to form a new noun; not form a verb. But whatever.I'm totally torn between who

2006-07-11T18:24:00.000+08:00

and all of the people Updates are way overdue! So, here’s all the recent news that’s fit to f- me (ala demian in televisionwithoutpity’s charmed-recaps), in no particular order.1. I HAVE DISRUPTED! As of 28/06/06, I have left national service and as of 30/06/06, I became a civilian. With my pink IC. No more OCS. For another 6 years, anyway. To all the non-disrupted suckers, I mean, poor babies

2006-06-25T16:51:00.000+08:00

you promised me you'll be thereOk, so the Total Physical And Emotional Hell that i forecasted wasn't that bad after all. For one thing, I finally attempted SOC and I PASSED WITH A KICKASS TIMING OF 9.02.Ok, 9.02 is hardly kickass by officer cadet standards, but considering I have only done ONE pt training in the past 3 weeks and with one entire week of status in that period, leaving me all frail

2006-06-18T16:58:00.000+08:00

nobody ever gonna take me higherSigh. I have to go back to camp in a few hours time, back to Total Shitness.Total Shitness of SOC, PRB, and a 23KM Route March That Involves Walking Up The Totally Shitty Elephant Hill.And within the next 30 minutes or so, I would be leaving for a Father's Day Gathering. Hence giving me totally little time to rest.I think my zest for the World Cup has been revived.

2006-06-13T21:32:00.000+08:00

oh baby when you talk like thatI realise that this is the third post in a row that I've used a lyric title from Hips Don't Lie by Shakira as my post title. It's now World Cup Fever anyway, so I might as well also get into the mood.Unfortunately, circumstances do not permit the same amount of enthusiasm as I had for the previous WC. For one, the suckiness of being stuck in army just Drains your

2006-06-11T18:50:00.000+08:00

i can see your body movingNow, what did I want to write about? My thoughts have more or less been fragmented and every time I make a mental note to blog about that thing, I would have forgotten by the time I actually open up my blogpage.Commissioning parade yesterday (that wasted the ENTIRE day of my time since the parade started at 1730 but we completed the day’s activities by 0930 so I spent

2006-06-06T20:40:00.000+08:00

so darling, who knewpointers to note before i start going into a bloggish discourse.1. I have completed 11 weeks of OCS, and i am still surviving. i haven't had any emotional trauma (surprisingly! in fact, there are hardly aby events that register any blip on my Emotional Trauma Scale.), physical trauma, physical scarring, physical damage. And i am approximately $2500 richer, which although still

2006-03-18T23:49:00.000+08:00

oh things were gonna happen naturallyF***. i got OCS.omg. my life is over._____ok, i have to look on the bright side of things. things that are good about ocs so i won't want to kill myself:1. prestiege. at least if i'm going to suffer and die, i'll suffer and die with some modicum of pride.2. i'm now officerly, sorry, officially hot(-ter than before). tuhh!3. probable physical fitness. lean bod

2006-03-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

and all of the people with nothing to provei'm in that mood again.so many possible reasons for it: paige getting married, cupid showing up, cupid lookalike telling me "your zip", seeing m in black (ok, but come to think of it, the excitement didn't last more than a few hours, so this reason is highly probably null.), some idiotic sister's constant gushing; and an eruption of overdue feelings.if i

2006-02-20T14:11:00.000+08:00

after all this whilei realise that my life in bmt has actually been quite slack, most of the time. 1) we hardly get tekaned (we rarely hear anyone shouting "whole lot half left down!"/"gather-spread-gather-spread"), and if we ever have to knock it down, it's only because some idiot did something that pissed the commanders off.2) we have loads of admin time compared to other companies. admin time

2006-02-12T15:10:00.000+08:00

as you turned around to leaveugh. 3 hours before it's back to shitdom. this week, i have range, grenade and the absolutely wonderfully enticing outfield sit test.all that's keeping me going is the knowledge that upon completion of this week, it'll mark the completion of 3 major events and that it'll be 2.5 weeks to pop.i don't know where i'll be going. i really don't want ocs or sispec, despite

2006-01-22T16:57:00.000+08:00

can't keep my eyes off youi have less than 1.5 hrs before i leave for damned sft. (SAF ferry terminal.)that damned place. i only like it when i'm approaching it from the sea, as it would mean that i'm heading towards singapore and into (mostly) <24 hrs of freedom.2 weeks of bmt. almost 1/4 way through. depressed feelings have faded, albeit i'll get an occasional pang of longing for the freedom

2006-01-03T01:00:00.000+08:00

pointing me on my wayfirst post of 2006, but it hardly feels like a new year.i guess it will when we all start traipsing miserably into tekong. ns beckons but i guess no one really wants to follow. the only silver lining that i can see besides a miserly factor of improved fitness that i would so rather do without, is getting BMT over and done with.movement of days still feels relatively

2005-12-20T18:49:00.000+08:00

when i fall in lovethe days are just slipping by with me unaware and unknowing, and i don't want this period to be just some empty, fuzzy blank space in my head. so, i shall attempt to start blogging again in hopes that the rumination would make this period a lot more significant than the dreamlike state it's in right now.what happened recently? oh, prom. i think female genes were switched on in

2005-08-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

cos you're everywhere to medavid returned to carolina! -sniff. miss him sothat's the adorable little monkey. yes, his front two teeth are missing. no, no one punched them out. it just so happens that he's reached the age where his milk teeth are dropping and the permanent ones are growing.and yes, that's me. looking not very nice. that sweet little thing told me, "i wish i could put you in a

2005-08-11T20:55:00.000+08:00

i saw an angel of that i'm surepractically all 7 were popping up like daisies after a rainstorm. or whatever ridiculous flower that blossoms after it rains.first was our dear ONE, who had gotten a herself a really snazzy hairdo and was looking absolutely flaming. it's been a long time since my initial response upon seeing someone was an unequivocal OMG.then queen of babes TWO plonked her pretty

2005-08-04T20:51:00.000+08:00

i can feel that you feel that way toosnort. if only.i realised that i can't really blog about it, because i've more or less declared the very abridged version to people, and i shall not underestimate the power of a speculating mind so shall very prudently refrain from mentioning anything that would in any way link both matters that would inexorably lead to the GASP! and the OR-HORR..but anyhow,

2005-07-26T21:19:00.000+08:00

i think i already lost youi am just feeling absolutely distracted now. i feel like whining more about stuff on blog but i think it would be too obsessive; and even though this is my blog and i can write whatever i want to write, excessive whining really should not be condoned.it is getting to a level where someone should just shake me hard (that would require someone of more prodigious strength

2005-07-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

just close your eyes each loving dayi like reading confetti~. x enjoys the more salacious adventures of a certain Faustus, MD, the other sister newly introduced to this network prefers the inundation of eye candy on the blog of a certain Parisian and Yugoslavian, but to me i seem to empathise more with wingedm. especially after the latest post on distant admiration and lack of courage. (ok, it's

2005-07-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

of the love that's waiting thereyes, am blogging muchly nowadays. dearly need to regain that flair which i think i once possessed, although not in copious amounts as i would desire, but enough to feel good about possessing some modicum of literary skill. of course, i have never and would never proclaim the beauty of my own writing in such a self apotheosizing (hehe! i keep getting a kick out of

2005-07-19T21:19:00.000+08:00

i close my eyesdisclaimer(which i was requested to put down. obviously i'm doing this for the sake of obliging someone. snort.): the "b" and "sheng" i was referring to a few posts ago was actually beatrice (my friend) and weisheng (her friend.). not possibly anyone that you (reader) was guessing at first.and i so am not a vocabwhore. i only vocabularise my phrases in order to screen out

2005-07-18T18:31:00.000+08:00

you will find your wayi woke up from my nap wondering why i felt so scandalised, then i remembered. no, i did not have another dream where one of my inamorats snubbed their noses up at me. it is just completely ridiculous. just when i was, on the brink of gleefully, thinking or even gloating (whatever for, i wonder) that that was certainly over. i had very combustible or psychotic people to worry

2005-07-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

here i am here i goit was a whole day class outing today. well, more like a mass potter reading session; me emerging first and wondering why the rest of them crawl along at such a ridiculously torpid paces. jk rowling is a most brilliant writer, but she is after all writing what is still classified as a children's book; don't see what could possibly hinder their speed so.anyway, potter didn't

2005-07-15T20:43:00.000+08:00

does it ever feel like no one's with youthis marks the 3rd day in a row that i've decided to blog out of boredom. i figure, why not try to hone your sadly deteriorated writing skills if you've nothing better to do. but i have nothing to blog about. i have no disturbing, festering grievance that my blog can address, nor any amplitudinously-protracted gushy feelings for anything. random thoughts

2005-07-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

breathe every little piece of merubbishy blogger is entirely in chinese. yujian is playing now. i chose to play it for fun, then i was wondering why i was feeling so weirdly affected by the song when i remembered that i dreamt of _ last night. yes, yummy barbaricness personified into The Subdolous.and my dream was kinda weird. for convenience's sake, we'll call this person Miss S. we were all

2005-07-13T17:56:00.000+08:00

wake me up when september endsit is most ridiculous, these complexities of mine. i don't know if they can be termed so, since my knowledge of psychology is so cursory. what i know: freud blames the mother for whatever the son turns out to be (Bree, DH), and once prue went psycho because her It was supressing her Ego too much. which people might say wouldn't be a problem for me.anyway. i've got a

2005-07-11T20:33:00.000+08:00

i'm not what you needquite a few things have come to pass during this lacuna in time, and i would hopefully be able to address them all; not for the sake of story telling to any non existent audience but hopefully for clear memories. then again, do i really want to remember some things before?things i'll try to address, not necessarily in chronological order:1. ibo training camp.2. a very

2005-05-29T18:55:00.000+08:00

i promise i willhad a really nice time with b and sheng (i still haven't caught his full name, unfortunately, so he'd just be known as that.) ok, mostly b, because i don't know sheng, but he's a pretty nice guy so i shall stamp my sisterly approval and wish them all the best. it was great catching up with him, albeit the advice to impregnante her is just plain dumb, and i have no idea how am i

2005-05-22T00:21:00.000+08:00

and then it all fades awaypeople possessing a poorer quality of writing class i.e. the plebs would expound on how much they love their friends with copious amounts of exclamation marks and capital letters. i, however, who pride myself on being aristocratically superior when it comes to writing, won't be so crass. i was never this attached to my cca in ri, but the bowlers in rjc are somehow

2005-05-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

that led me straight to youutterly and irrevocably floored by carrie's rendition of bless the broken road. the first viewing of her performance never generated much feelings, but hearing it again clearly was just -woah-. it's very seldom that a song tugs my heartstrings like that.the song just makes me wonder when i'll find the hypothetical person of my dreams, the culmination, and ending, of all

2005-05-05T22:46:00.000+08:00

it's getting hot in hereit's 1045, i'm barely 1/4 way through my bio essay, i have to sleep at 11 so that i won't freaking die for shitty napfa, and judging by how i have decided to blog because i cannot stand writing about MHCs and IgM/G/Es or cytotoxic t-cells, i do not see how i am ever going to accomplish this.but the deadline tmr is already an extended one that evahor reluctantly granted (

2005-05-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

wouldn't it be niceoh, how i have missed my dear com so. i realised what an utter com-whore i am. so that adds to the list of vocab-whore, cheesebrownie-whore, dota-whore and.. in a very recent past, emphasis on past, ***-whore.anyway, i just realised that perhaps my blog has more than 3 readers (me and perhaps two others) after all, and a snoopy classmate would occasionally come here to check

2005-04-22T23:39:00.000+08:00

nobody said you'd be so beautifulcolourblind is an utterly poignant and accurate description of my feelings.(i had no idea darius danesh was such a goodlooker. the voice doesn't match the looks, i tell you.)this week, i was hoping not to meet at all. monday went by with the barest and slightest of sightings, and although it wasn't satisfactory it was acceptable. then came a barrage of chance